Gamble of Life

Believe it or not, I hoped.
Hard it is to fathom, but I prayed.
Inside me, I had faith.
But now that the things that I have coped.
Losses that I have endured.
Fears that I have conquered.
Things I have foregone.
Pain that I have felt
It crashes down upon me, all over again.
The old wounds ripped apart.
The feeling of loneliness, isolated from the crowd.
Left with nothing, standing in the middle of nowhere.
Oh yeah, I have tried.
Tried to regain my faith.
But I guess now it's too late.
The clock is ticking away
Time is passing by
Darkness ahead
No light at the end of the tunnel
I wonder why I kiss failure again and again?
Maybe its meant to be, supposed to be
But no one can force happiness onto me.
I guess I was meant to lose the battle, the gamble.
For my path has always been strewn with bramble.
All I see ahead is sorrow, pain, failure, disappointment.
At losing the gamble of life.